Weighty Matters

I have come a long way in "anxiety land" over homeschooling. But my journey isn't over yet. I thought I was farther along...until someone started asking my opinion about curriculum. I began owning that person's anxiety and insecurity of how to pick curriculum and do what's best for your child. I began to doubt myself (again).
     I had made these decisions in the spring...bringing the "Principal" along with me to the homeschooling conference to see some new options for our special learner, pick out some challenging things for our advanced but impatient learner, and to have someone else to blame if it all goes up in flames! So why did doubt and anxiety set in? Because I let it! I started to make it about me and not about Him! About my success, not whether He is glorified in the process.
      Why am I homeschooling my boys? It started out of need for the special learner to get one to one attention. That still has some heavy weight in why we are still at it. But in the process, the LORD has convinced me that the world doesn't decide who we are. He does. And now is the time to give them my full attention. The boys have been harassed in sports...being called racist things like "Jackie Chan" and "Yo Japanese". I can't stop the words that the world will fling at them. But I can give it everything I have to teach them who they are in Christ. I can teach them that in Christ they are more than conquerors and how to put on the full armour of God to stand against the enemy. I can teach them not to consider themselves more highly than they should, and not to repay evil...but to overcome evil with good. What a privilege and a weighty matter to equip your child to walk in the ways of God. Thankfully He promised to never leave me or forsake me. Thank you LORD!