Perspective

I had a dream last night that I couldn't speak...I couldn't tell someone something really important. I don't know what it was or who I was trying to tell. I just woke up thinking...what if I couldn't communicate? What if no one understood me? 

 I've been studying French again. There is a chance I will get to go to Paris next summer, and I want to be able to communicate! Maybe that's where the dream came from. Or maybe it's related to the rough week my son has been having. His expressive/receptive language disorder is so frustrating to all of us. There are times when he can't get sentences out in the right order, or ask the question He wants to. He has difficulty processing things that are being said. It's hard to explain, but he'll hear part of what you are saying, and bunny trail off..never connecting the second part of what was said. For example...I said, "That little boy doesn't have parents who will help him with his memory verses".  And He said, " He doesn't have parents?"  This goes on all day long. We spend lots of time rephrasing and repeating what we are talking about. And patience is one of the Fruit that is not fully developed in me!  My sweet friend said something yesterday that struck my heart..."where would he be if you hadn't brought him home? How would he have come this far? " All I could think about from that point forward was...where would I be if the LORD hadn't saved me?If He hadn't adopted ME?  My nature is to look at the hurdles. To stand in the distance from the GRACE that has been given me and say...it doesn't really look like we're going to make it. It doesn't seem like there's much hope for "normal" here.  Thankfully my sweet friend Danielle reminded me how important it is to have girlfriends who help you remember what is TRUE. God is not surprised at what is going on here. He is the One who ordained it. And since I can still talk and type...I will always be ready to give a reason for the Hope I have in Jesus. "We know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance produces character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out His love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us" (Rom. 4:3-5). From my perspective, I cannot see it. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. 

 It's in my heart. Thank you LORD for reminding me.