Enjoy!

I recently ate a great meal in Brown County, Indiana with my favorite person in the whole wide world. Doing things like that...leaving town, forgetting what is weighing you down, and just enjoying the moment is priceless and refreshing. But the moment I slip back into routine, my ability to relax and enjoy fades like the memories of the weekend. I know there are so many things right here to enjoy and celebrate, but I'm so short sighted I can't see it. I seem to have lost the habit of enjoying the journey. Of really seeing what's good around me and enjoying it. I decided today that I need more practice...one might call it the "spiritual discipline" of enjoying what I've been given by the Giver of all good things. I have become the one who is constantly holding people accountable. I am the Queen of accountability around here(some say evil queen, but not to my face). But in the process, I've lost my ability to enjoy any of it. It's all a list to be completed. Mark it off the list. Make a new list for tomorrow . And on and on until I realize days have gone by and I have not laughed. I have not really seen or heard anything that the Giver had intended for me to enjoy. I'm not really sure how to break the cycle. Would it be wrong to stop everything on my schedule? To just breathe deeply and open my eyes to everything around me today?  Would my family and friends understand if I just let it all go for awhile?  Would someone call the authorities?
     Right now I'm listening to my son and his guitar teacher play "Draw Me Close to You"...the words are reminding me slowly...."You're all I want. You're all I ever needed. You're all I want, Help me know You are near". And I really enjoyed it;) I guess step one in any recovery program is admitting you have a problem. Thank You Jesus for helping me enjoy something small today. Anyone know of a good 12 step program for the the seriously fun challenged?